Tuesday, April 18, 2006 . 11:42 PM

Single Life

I wanna be single again, Feels like I'm fallin' out of love again, I dunno, I guess I'm not inlove at all. I wanna find someone who can make me fall in love again, someone who's deserving for my love ofcourse, i know my boyfriend is deserving but really, i know i don't love him enough to make me cry when we break up, when we fight, when he's mad at me or whatsoever. Yea, he makes me feel this thing you call *klig*, but sometimes, the magic, it's not there.. You can't push yourself to love someone if you know you really can't love him. And besides, hindi pinag-aaralan ang pagmamahal, kusa mo itong mararamdaman. Well, I guess I just love him as a friend, or as a close friend. *Sighs* Til now, I'm still not sure about what i feel for him, is it loneliness? is it pity? is it just a friendship? is it just an infatuation? but there's one thing i'm sure of, it's not love.

I haven't texted him nor called him for a while.I guess I just don't feel like communicating with him.. He just texted me a while ago, saying he misses me and all that. I just erased it, I got a little bit hurt for him.. For the reason he loves me so much while me, I don't. Really, I wanna be single again, I wanna realize a few things for myself, I wanna wait for that someone who will make me fall in love again. Masaya naman maging single eh, dba?

Boo, kung mabasa moh man toh, now you have a clue bakit di ako nagpaparamdam.. naguguluhan nanaman ako, lamo ba yun? We just have to accept it I guess... Paulit-ulit nalang nangyayare toh, paulit-ulit nalang ikaw nasasaktan dahil saken.. Hindi ka ba nagsasawa? Sa totoo lang, matagal na kitang minahal kung pede lang idikta sa puso kung sino ang mamahalin nia, kaso hindi eh.. Sadyang may mga taong hindi para sa isa't-isa, at tayo, ganun tayo..

Ate Kath gave me a gift.. this oh!

and irish suplada gave me a gift too!!! button xa, cute nga weh! tingnan nio nalang sa gilid para makita nio...


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