Tuesday, January 31, 2006 . 8:35 PM

kissing goodbye to my past...

for the nth time, i'm saying goodbye again to my past... and AGAIN, i'm keeping this stuff toy in the cabinet... ok ok, that stuff toy was given to me by my ex.. memories.. memories.. it's been a year since we broke up, it's been a year since me and mah boyfriend became together.. but until now, he's still the one... fuck, as in fuck talaga. I pretended to be strong, I also pretended that I'm over him na.. As a matter of fact, I was about to believe that I'm over him na talaga.. Pero bat ganun? nung saturday, while we were talking about stuffs, bumalik ulet? I wanted to hug and kiss him that time, pero hindi pwede.. bat ba kasi ganun?! hindi coh malaman kung ganun ba coh katanga not to forget him? Haaii, I guess he's just tattooed on my mind.. I'm cursing him for being so sweet and so kind that I can't get him out of my dreams...

I almost break up with mah bf, just because of this thing.. Pero tanginang yan, I can't do it... His bestbud told me, he will go insane if i break up with him.. I asked for some advices from some fellow teentalkers, they said it's right if i break up with him nalang.. Pero tangina kasi, he told me, prang sirang-sira na buhay nia pag nawala ako at sobrang mahal daw nia coh, nawala tuloii lakas ng loob coh makipagbreakk... >.< ang akin lang naman, Ngaun coh lang narealize how much i've been unfair to him, how much i hurted him especially when it comes to things about mah ex.. And what I wanna happen is, maging single muna... Hanggang sa alam kong may feelings pako sa ex coh, hindi muna ako magbboyfriend... Dahil magiging unfair lang ako sa magiging boyfriend coh, like what's happening right now. Pero wala, I already told my boyfriend that I'm not breaking up with him na.. Am I sure about my decision?! Actually, no. Gulong-gulo parin isip coh.. putanginang pagmamahal yan.

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