Sunday, January 29, 2006 . 12:36 PM

an afternoon with my past..

well, i went to my ex's place yesterday.. Not to visit him but to accompany my brother to go to their house, coz my ex's sister is my brother's classmate.. he needed to go there coz they have a practice for their cheering this coming sportsfest of our school, and he doesn't know how to go there that's why i accompanied him.. I didn't go there to visit my ex, but it turned out to be like that.. When we got there, i greeted his sister, we're close naman eh.. after few minutes, i asked her where is her brother tapus ayun, i went to his room with my brother and his sister..

He and his brother were playing pc that time when his sister and my brother left his room, so we're 3 in his room.. While he's playing, he's making kwento-kwento and asks some stuffs.. After a while din, he let his brother play the pc, i kept on telling him kase na, "Palaruin mo naman yang kapatd mo oh, kanina pa nanonood sayo.." tapus ayun. Me and him are sitting on his bed while we watch his brother play the pc, tamang kwentuhan lang din kame.. ayun, hindi pa rin xa nagbabago, madaldal pa rin.. dameng kwento! Cguro mga after 30 min. din, he told his brother to stop playing na.. tapus nagsounds lang kame, he opened the windows media player, and i discoverd something, something that made me smile.. When he opened the wmp, there were only 20 songs, i was like, "wala na bang ibang kanta?" tapus sabi nia, "etoh gusto moh?" tapus niclick nia yun isang unknown album dun, guess what guyz, that was the cd i gave him last march, march2005.. that was the time when i said to myself na kakalimutan coh na talaga xa at di na aasa.. he ripped it to his pc.. it means, pinapakinggan din nia yun kahit minsan right? but i saw a thing which made me hurt too.. Lumbas kasi xa ng kwarto nia isang beses, kinalikot coh cp nia, tapus nakita coh, nakafolder yun mga messages nung girl na gusto nia.. masakit pa rin pala kahit konti, pero ok lang, mtagal coh na naman tanggap yun.. walang kaso..

It's hard for me to accept, that i still long for his touch.. And it's also hard to accept, that the wound he made to my heart will never heal.. It may heal and become a scar, but i'm sure the scar will never be gone. Seeing him happy with other girl will surely hurt me, but also will make me happy for seeing him happy...

around 6 na kame umuwi, kasi yun un time na natapus cla.. after that i texted my boo, i asked him if i can go to his place, ayun, pumayag naman.. actually kasalanan coh yan sa kania, he doesn't know about this thing, ang alam nia pumunta kame ng sm yesterday, which was really supposed to happen. Dapat naman tlaga sm kame kahapon eh, kaso ang tagal ntapus ng kapatd coh kaya di na kame nakasm.. ayun, i don't have any plans to tell this to him, baka mag-away pa kame, pero wala naman ako ginawang masama eh dBA?? khuletz nga nia last night, he kept on sending the same message, "i love you boo, muaahh".. ayun, nakakatuwa.. hehe..

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