Friday, December 16, 2005 . 5:49 AM

i attended the simbang-madalingaraw [simbang gabi as we call it] today... pero hindi coh naintindihan lahat ng sinabi ng pari.. it was because we were outside the church because there were so many people... yung mga boses ng mga tao sa labas nga halos naririnig coh.. dang! it pissed me off! it was like, people outside attended the simbang-gabi not to listen to the mass but just to have the right to say na.. "uii!pumunta ako ng simbang-gabi! ikaw? nagsimbang-gabi kaba?" like duh?? do they really have the right to say that? yes they did attend it, but God didn't feel that they were there for Him.. so parang wala rin yun pinunta nila dun! parang pumunta lang sila dun para tumambay at magkwentuhan! diba?!?!? kasi yung iba talaga, nagkkwentuhan lang.. yung nasa harap coh pa lingon ng lingon sa likod na parang kiti-kiti na laging may hinahanap na ewan! OMG!! nakakabwisit talaga.. someone is smoking outside pa.. hindi lang someone, yung ibang tao rin sa labas nagyoyosi!pero yung mga nasa likod na..pero still! nandun sila para magsimba tapus magyoyosi sila?? parang binabastos nila si God eh.. actually, yung ibang tao na nasa likod pa namen yung nagyoyosi!! grrr... don't they respect God?? don't they respect themselves? or.. they just don't know the meaning of respect?? hmmmfff! bwisit talaga... bukas, aagahan ko gising coh para maaga rin kame makapunta dun para nasa loob kame ng simabahan... haay.. people like that pisses me off a lot.. those people who go to church just to say "hey! i went to church!" but didn't actually listened to tha mass and didn't actually go there for God. ugh. i pity them.

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kahapon coh pa dapat ieedit toh..may kwento kasi ako.. kaya lang.. mejo tinamad ako eh.. anyways.. ano ang ikkwento coh? i had a good dream that morning... nagsimbang gabi nga ako dba? e ayun.. pagkatapus coh ibuhos ang galit coh dito sa blog coh dun sa mga taong epal na yun.. kumain muna ako ng breakfast and rested for a while tapus na-aral nako ng geometry.. yun kasi exam namen kahapon.. math and filipino.. i didn't study filipino na coz i was sleepy na... kaya after coh mag-aral ng geom, natulog nako.. and i dreamt of jepy[my ex-boyfriend who still lives in my heart and the guy whom i loved more than my life and longed to be with forever..>.<]ano nga ba ang napanaginipan coh tungkol sa kania?? hmmm? i was able to kiss him again in my dream that morning.. and in my dream i felt that he still have feelings for me but he knows we can't be together[coz i have a boyfriend] that's why he's controlling his feelings for me.. actually, it wasn't him who kissed me, it was me who kissed him.. and he kissed me back.. and then the dream went on.. when i woke up.. i saw the stuff toy he gave me way back on my 13th birthday.. my mom took it out from the cabinet where i kept it when she cleaned that cabinet.. pero tinago coh na ulet.. hihi..well, i guess that dream was a blessing from God..

haay, i know there's no chance for us to be 'together' again.. at hindi naman na ako umaasa.. but those times that we were together will always live in my mind and in my heart... :)"tuwing umuulan, malaman niya sanang may nagmamahal sa kanya..."

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